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Two weeks felt impossible. Two weeks felt like a countdown to another disappointment I would have to absorb for my daughter.
Meanwhile, Hazel sank.
She stopped coming downstairs for breakfast. She wore the same gray hoodie three days in a row. When I knocked, she answered in syllables.
On day four, I went into her room to switch out her laundry and found a notebook under the bed.
I tried to keep her tethered with small lies.
“I’m just running errands,” I would say, when I was actually buying ivory silk thread from the craft store because Eli had texted me a list.
On day four, I went into her room to switch out her laundry and found a notebook under the bed. Not the freshman one I’d thumbed through months ago, behind the paperbacks. A newer one. Sophomore year, in her tighter, angrier hand.
Names. Pages of them.
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