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I found her journals once, the old ones from freshman year, tucked behind a row of paperbacks. Names of girls. Names of boys. Cruel little phrases written in her round handwriting, the kind of words you only write down because you cannot say them out loud.
I put the journal back exactly where I found it.
That spring, prom invitations started arriving in other girls’ mailboxes. I saw the pictures their mothers posted online, daughters in pastel dresses holding bouquets.
I knocked on Hazel’s door.
“Mason wanted you to go.”
“Sweetheart. Prom is in three weeks.”
“I’m not going, Mom.”
“Mason wanted you to go.”
She was quiet for a long time. Then I heard the bed creak and footsteps, and the door cracked open an inch.
“Mason wanted a lot of things.”
“He wanted you to wear a dress and dance and laugh,” I said. “He told me so.”
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